Controversial Married At First Sight bride Bec Zacharia has revealed that she suffered years of abuse as a child.
The 35-year-old admitted that she had only started to come to terms with how the ordeal had affected her life.
Speaking to Woman’s Day, Bec said that she had been irrevocably changed by trauma, saying that she feels a constant need to ‘prove’ her worth.
‘I was told I was ugly and that I’d never find a man who’d love me,’ she told the publication.
‘When something happens to you that young, it changes how you see yourself. I’ve spent most of my adult life trying to prove I’m good enough.’
During her time on the show, both castmates and viewers have questioned Bec’s sometimes explosive behaviour – particularly the third dinner party, where she launched various attacks on fellow brides.
Married At First Sight bride Bec Zacharia has revealed that she suffered years of abuse as a child
‘I was told I was ugly and that I’d never find a man who’d love me,’ she told Woman’s Day. ‘When something happens to you that young, it changes how you see yourself. I’ve spent most of my adult life trying to prove I’m good enough’
Bec added that she believes some of the negative behaviour she has displayed on camera may be linked to her past trauma.
‘When you’ve experienced abuse, small situations can feel amplified. It’s not always about what’s happening in front of you,’ she said.
Bec added that she struggles to trust women, given that her abuser was female.
‘I’ve had to ask whether that’s connected to my past. The honest answer is, “probably,”‘ she said.
‘I have trouble trusting women as my abuser was a woman.’
Speaking to Daily Mail following the explosive dinner party, Bec admitted to having a lot of regrets.
‘My biggest regret is that this is a show about love and relationships. But what has been shown, instead of beautiful relationships, is drama. And I have a part to play in that,’ she said.
Bec added she had a lot of work to do in order to make things right with the people she had wronged.
Bec added that she believes some of the negative behaviour she has displayed on camera may be linked to her past trauma
‘I’ve had to ask whether that’s connected to my past. The honest answer is, “probably,”‘ she said. ‘I have trouble trusting women as my abuser was a woman’
‘An apology is due to not only my castmates but also to the public watching. There was a group of us creating drama and taking away from the relationships,’ she said.
‘You watch MAFS to see these relationships unfold, we are taking it away from them. I feel guilty.’
It comes after reports emerged last week that Bec had lost her job over her appearance on the hit reality series.
According to sources, Bec was working in sales for an Adelaide manufacturing firm when management called her in after the third dinner party was aired last month.
‘They just told her that they couldn’t have her there,’ an insider told Woman’s Day.
The source continued: ‘They didn’t want her to work there any longer, and it was due to what was happening on MAFS and her behaviour.’
According to the report, Bec discussed her MAFS appearance with management soon after taking the job, and her bosses expressed concern about the show’s impact.
‘The show had just started [airing], and they basically sat her down and told her that they thought it’d be best for her to come back after MAFS had finished,’ the source said.
‘She told them that she needed the job to pay her rent and mortgages.’
Management apparently told Bec that she could keep her job on the condition that she would not do any publicity.
The insider said that Bec’s bosses’ attitude changed when they saw the third dinner party, where the outspoken bride meddled in the contestants’ relationships.
